Such a long day. One where no matter what the weight just kept getting heavier. I had absolutely no idea where I wanted to be. I wandered around work at lunchtime feeling so unsettled, couldn't stand being in the classroom, the staff room or the playground. I ended up dumping some stuff on another teacher.....fortunately she was welcoming. It is getting hard to do the most normal things.... the washing doesn't get put away, the dishes aren't done. That is ontop of the things I already feel useless about, like the fact that the lawn is so high because I simply can't start the mower, or that I am stuffed if I want to do anything in the kitchen at night because I need a new light fitting but have no idea what to get or how to put it in..... I don't think I would be able to reach it anyway.
Today I was happy about:
- BBQ dinner at a friends place for their birthday, just wish I hadn't felt quite so out of sorts, fear I may have spoilt things a bit for her.
- She gave me a lovely notebook for my birthday, just the perfect size to fit in the camera bag.
- That no matter what I can get unconditional love, acceptance and comfort from my cats..... well conditional on a tin of food but close enough.
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