I need a new online place to be. I started blogging because the place that I offloaded on had begun to change.... for the past 6 months it has had some shifts and it's not the same for me. I have made some wonderful friends there, but there have been little things with many of them over this time that have left me unsure about where I stand.... the feel of the site has changed a lot.... almost like still hanging out at your favourite pub but the atmosphere isn't quite right. I realised that one of the big weights recently has been this shift...... old patterns have occured, in fact I can place most of my friendships there against RL ones and they are like mirrors...... too familiar, and when that happens you have to look to the common factor..... me. I don't want to let some of those people go............. it is my only social life, there is literally nothing else...... and besides that I care too deeeply about some for that to happen..... but..... I don't really want to be on the site either. I am finding, increasingly that I am not articulate enough to say what I need to say without being misunderstood....... I started posting to blogs to get the things I wrote there out, but that only worked to a certain degree.... these blogs only have certain elements of what I write there, the other stuff, like this looong ramble, don't fit here (but for today I shall make an exception).
I need a new website......
Today I was happy about:
- My kids loving writing poetry, absolutely fabulous to see.
- A belated birthday card from a dear friend across the miles
- A lovely message from a friend when I needed it most, he told me to get a vibrant avatar back to represent me.......... can't find anything fitting so he will have to wait.
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