I feel like

I have been hit in the back of the head with a sledge hammer today. I have spent all afternoon trying to shake a migraine and being so incredibly tired......... just what I need with only one day left before I go back to work. Given that I only get migraines when I am stressed or anxious, and that they are magnified by the heat I have to completely shake it tomorrow.

Other than that I am still completely puzzled....... but I am at the point of giving up on caring. I am completely puzzled how people that I have known for such a long time can simply not get it....... just so clearly demonstrate their lack of understanding of who I am. I always thought I was fairly clear about it, not always completely open....... that takes an incredible amount of trust.....but I am clear about who I am.

I have become very aware that I simply don't fit in this world.......... and I am not a good enough actor to pretend that I do.